A conclusion is the place where you get tired of thinking

Once debate is over, i'm going to go home and cry my eyes out, regardless of the results...........

don't ask why, guess it's just another milestone in my life i have to get over with and move on....

This is just effin stupid

me chattin wif indian stranger
me indian dude
you are now chattin with a random stranger. Say hi!
hi
hi
asl?
f or m?
17 f malaysia
I'm 19 m India
u noe whr malaysia is?
yes of course
ofofmy fav places
really?!
gr8 place
yup
gr8 like u
u've been here b4
hahahaha, sure
lolz
wat abt India?
so how r u?
hnmmm
india is a nyc place too
like normal
hope u hv heard abt it
of course
hahahaha
we watch hindi movies here
it's like every sat at 2 on national tv
so wats ur name miss stranger....dats wat I hv to call u now
really...
dats nyc...
u no hindi
seriously, u're not malaysian if u haven't heard of India
not hindi
very far from that
haha
so I take it u're hindi
wich movie
like duh!
yup
there's so many
i am hindi
u???
some are like blockbusters
wats ur fav
like all those shah rukh khan, hritik roshan
hey n wats ur name.... sweeet miss stranger
and some are like b-grade
jane
ya, lolz....
nyc name
hi jane i am safal
studyin, workin?
so u do understand sum hindi
well, studyin
i noe pyarr means love
after all i am only 19
hu noes
wow
wat else
errr,that's abt it
wat abt u?
wat do u do
studyin
double duh
only 17
owww, sweet 17
wana be 17 again
really
u wudn't
17 is a time of major exams here
but wat do life goes on'
ohhh
it's like do badly, and no scholarsips or good uni admissions
ADB to u then
all the best... ADB
oh ok
so jane, wat r ur hobbies
??
mock ppl
wow
dats y I'm here
sometimes u come across perverted ppl
best time to mock
heyy i'm not like dat
yeah
ya
so wat do u think
i noe how to spot a perv
can we be gud frens
they'll be like
jane
wana suck my dick while i fuck ur ass
yeah
lolz, thx..
bt how?
heyyy... u're on facebook
nope
i'm serious
well ok
my dad has 1 and i don't
twitter
well den get 1
plz... dyin for ur friendship
i
am
ur
buddy
pal
:]
hahahaha
i thought India has over a billion ppl
so
wat....
dun u hv frens among the billion ppl?
i hv
but u noe wat...we indians love to make more and more friends
it never stops
love has no limits
:]
wat say?
HMMMM, NO!!!!

you have disconnected


Thx chan, for corruptin me by introducin the website
Now all I do is mock losers frm arnd the world

can call all you want, but there's no one home, and you're not gonna reach my telephone

I'm went Chan Sze Wei's CNY Party on Sunday. It's great, cause get to see all the teacher's from primary school, especially teacher Marsiah. Let me tell you, she is still as horny as ever. This one young guy tried to limpas her cuz she block kan, so she stepped aside and said, "cute oh the guy kan" in front of her husband. The woman never changed.

Since I am within the vicinity of a webcam, apa lagi, camwhore lar! Then I tried to upload the pics but FAILED! Oh well, what to do.... God I miss Tengku Juliana AKA Tungsten now. I miss her hair the most. It's so fluffy. Tu lar kau pergi SMESH! You think so nice kah leave me alone here with no one's hair to molest. Haiz, at least Landy's hairy body parts can substitute. Her hand alone, like a rug! Don't bah, you know I'm just jokin kan Landy Habibi Mazimoto.

IT'S OFFICIAL, I'M LADY GAGA-OBSESSED!!!!

I want her to come down to Malaysia to perform and meet her in person. She's just awesome. Heard her new song, Telephone? Very very nice kan. If you haven't, you're a nerd! Enough said

Another thing I'm obsessed about is Dalja's Spring. Basically it's a K-Drama airing on KBS channel now. Every Mon-Thurs, from 10.10-11.20 at night. It's the only series I'd drop anything to watch it.

Fine, maybe the lead guy and girl isn't that hot. But don't judge a book by it's cover, or in this case, a drama by the looks of it's actors. It's seriously good.

I don't know if I should say this, cuz chan might kill me, but I think I'm more excited about drama than I am about debate. And I'm not even in drama. Meanwhile, I just became Landay's favourite person apart from her geng Duduk Belakang. :p

The Hate Post

I hate the debate topics for this year. What the hell man! Change is not progress?! Want to kill us one by one bah this kan! Siapa bah si smartass yang think it's so funny to use dat, pervs!

So I guess the holidays won't be the holidays for me lar now, cause you know, got latihan debate and all. Story of my life lar kan. And then, guess what happened in class? Teacher Siska said to me kan, in front of the whole entire class, "Mirabel, you more playful this year." There, the one freaking statement freaked me out. ONE FREAKING SENTENCE ! I scared oh, what if I lose to unknown people in SPM, in my glory YEARS? Oh shit, I can't imagine!

And now, I'm in a dilemma. It's a feeling that I really hate. Last time, it was if I choose between debate and mooting. Now, I'm pretty sure I'm going to choose both. Then it was my public speaking speech topic. I wanted to do one on gay rights, which I have already and it is such a pretty and magical script. Unfortunately, since we live in a country where even a simple peck on the lips shown on tv is cut out, I don't think I can present that for the competition.And yes, I'm still searching.

Now, this. Am I willing to go to New Zealand for a year on a student exchange programe? It's not that simple because if I were to go, I would miss out on scholarship applications and I don't know if I can afford to do that. My mummy say kan I'm the best hope for scholarship in my family. I know I'm vain, and I own it. I'm a vain Bi-atch baby! But if I were to go, I'll go to high school there for a year and maybe just continue staying my university in NZ. Dilemma, dilemma.

I can't do all this right now. I need to go back to Form 1. It was a heck lot easier facing life then. Oh, and to Landy, make sure we win drama okay? Must!

If I had a penny for every time I wrote 4ST instead of 5ST.....

It's official, all teachers are targeting me! You guys think so nice kah to call out my name every time in class. I know lar bah I'm the only one who is daring enough to stand up to you, mock you and be frank with you, but still... I'm kinda asking for it though I gotta admit that. Then again, I just can't stand being around the stupidity that teachers create. BLAME IT ON MY PARENTS!

You see, my mum went to high school(well, a year only, but still) and university in Canada, and dad was uni-educated in London, so they always encourage me to speak my mind. I'm sorry if it bothers some teachers here, but I'm glad I'm not molded to be according to some Asian "sensibilities" that in class, all I can do is sit, listen, shut up and absorb any information that the teachers spoon-feeds. HARSH, yes, but true nevertheless.

Oh whatever, a few years to go and I will finally express my thoughts without the fear of being expelled or something ugly like that.

I'm so glad my parent's are weird but awesome in their own way though, even though I complain like a female dog on steroids. I MEAN... Dad just bought a Pearl (IT'S A BRAND) drum set, a Yamaha keyboard and an Ibanez bass guitar out of the blue. But get this, none of us siblings know how to play ANY musical instruments.

But nooooo, now he thinks he can cram lessons into our poor heads and god willing, be able to play all of it ASAP. Oh daddy, hmmmm... We just had a guy come over and teach us the drums but I quit halfway. BORING!!!!!! I know I sound like an ungrateful child but the thing is, I AM AN UNGRATEFUL CHILD, when it comes to learning music at least.

Well hey, at least my parents can be cool when they try.

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Me Mum

Try you check the flight to Singapore. Cheap kan.

*see the price*It's fine

You wanna go this June holiday? Got the big sale you know.

Yeah yeah sure mummy. *as if it would happen*

Help book the flight. You big girl already kan, take my credit card.

Wait, are you serious?!

Yeah lar, just the two of us go. Biar your daddy yang jaga tu budak lain. Both of us deserve a break.

F, you are serious!

When there's a credit card involve, I'm always serious.

You didn't take too many "happy" pills now did you?!

You ni kan, don't go lar if like that.

Okay okay, I wana go!

Then stop talking.

For once, I'll listen to you :)

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Yup, within the span of 35 minutes, my mum decided that we are going to Singapore. My mum's crazy, and I love her for it.

invisible

YOU JUST SEE RIGHT THRU ME,

IF YOU ONLY KNEW ME,

WE COULD BE A BEAUTIFUL MIRACLE,

UNBELIEVABLE,

INSTEAD I'M JUST INVISIBLE

It's a crime...

to badmouth people as much as I do. But hey, it's not exactly my fault. It's just that, some people are so RIPE for mocking! Enough said.

Interview is over and done with. Honestly, I'm okay with the selection we had. Hmmm, hopefully this year we can still improve from how we did overall last year. Some were very quiet you can hear a pin drop when they're talking, some were so overconfident they irk us B.O.D's with their atitude, and some were just plain wrong for Interact.

I enjoyed the part where when the interview was over, all the B.O.D's gather to discuss who we want in and who we want out. Mocking ensues. However, there was also quite a number of people who didn't have the guts to go for the interview. CHICKEN.

At least my acara sukan is over and done with. TWO GOLDS!!! Beat that :p I know I'm very late in putting up my new year's post but that's what you'll get if you have a dictator for a mum.

And Chan Sze Wei, before you kill me, I have made a decision. And that is, to drop debate for mooting. I want both bah dat but it'll clash sometimes in the future. I love debate but I need to try something new. And I want the award for BEST ADVOTAGE! So, there you go.

As long as there are tests, there will be prayers in schools

KL 2moro!!!! Excited much!!!! Apparently, this holiday is very budget-controlled so maybe the shopping thingy has to be scaled back. Oh well, I'm not complaining, at least I'll have my last chance at letting loose b4 next year :) Haha, can't wait for the Interact interview next year though, buli the juniors to death, I mean, whatchu talkin about?!

Wahai B.O.D-B.O.D sekalian, prepare you torture devices, instruments and whatever schemes to make the interview 'interesting', alright?

But kan, I'm not sure I'm fully prepared to go to school yet. Let's see

• MJ as our Add M3 teacher. Shit, die lar us. I guess all those times spent NOT doing homework in Form 4 will come back to bite us in the ass in Form 5. Don't forget, got folio oso.
• Which brings me to Moral. Remember teacher Rosmah told us to do our folio for next year during the holidays. Did you actually do it? Nerds...
• Last minutes instruction to do a PEKA report for Chemistry. Like, wtf?!
  

AND NOW THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRGH!!!!!!!


I chip the paint on my nail :(...... I so sad oh, I thought can last until school wana start, but apparently the world hates me, so events happen which lead to my paint job being ruined.

BTW kan, I did nail art on my nails twice this holiday. TWICE! So nice o the people do, here got some more designs...

LOVELOVELOVE the strawberries. So cute kan... The blue nails is also not so bad



And yes, the person is able to paint shoes on a NAIL as well. I was like "can you paint my potrait on my nails?" She thought I was weird, oh well, at least I tried asking.



And of course, my FAVE!!!!!!!!! So nice kan, like something you can find in one of those old barber shops, just with more and much prettier colours. My fave colour is purple fyi.

Lookie here, It's Samantha Sa-mule Samy Velu (Bervert's nickname)! The only girl from Convent who gets to skip the early days of school till Chinese New Year because she's on a students exchange program in Italy. Urrrgh, I hope you have fun ogling the Italian dudes Sam, and it's true, I'm jealous!!!!! Gawd, I look old :(


Man : You remind me of the sea.
Woman : Because I'm wild, romantic and exciting?
Man : NO, because you make me sick.

He who laughs last didn't get it.

I'm sorry I couldn't come to Sonia's X'mas party tonight. I'm a bit sorry I can't go to the youth's Retro X'mas party tonight.It's just that, my mum decided to have our own X'mas party tonight. :(

I want my maid to come back soon !!!!! Cleaning up the house plus preparing the food and some games is not easy especially in my house. There's so many places to clean! I can't live without a maid! She makes life so much more bearable.

But at least it's 3 days to KL!!!!! I can't wait to shop. SHOPSHOSHOPSHOPSHOSHOPSHOPSHOPSHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who says life's unfair? But promised mummy already no more play play after hols.

So, I just bought 4 reference books and 15 workbooks from Annaclare. Loves her. Paid RM50 only :) I tell you lar, I now have 23 Reference books and 80 workbooks to do to prepare for SPM. And I barely have a-fifth of the workbooks needed for Form 5 plus no SPM mock papers yet.... Sigh......

I'll conquer you SPM, I will !!!!

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts

Are you going to kiss me or do I have to lie to my diary?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me love Christmas, very much. But I love Christmas even more when people give me money. O f course, it gets even better then two people does it. I love u grandma and grandaunty, u rock ! So how was your Christmas? I spent the morning in Putera because the church had this combined meeting thingy, and you know, so many people came, like 1500++, including monkeys, i mean children.....

So I keep on seeing them running around like wild animals and I can almost swear that children is out of the list for me. Of course, as usual mummy has other ideas AKA she wants more brats to lie around the house ruining my day. NO FREAKING WAY!!! I hope she menopauses soon, before she pops out more children.

One thing I do want more of, beside cash, is heels!

LV heels!



Never seen anything like it. Christian Dior!



And this people is my dream wedding shoes. I noe the black colour is inappropriate for bridal shoes, but anyone will be forgiven with this shoes. I mean, come on! It's Christian Louboutin!!! Now all I need is a guy who is at least 6' as my husband to accomodate my heels collection later on. Gotta look nice in the pictures no?

Price of all the above?: Probably enough to support two people through an entire duration of studies in Institut Sinaran.

Worth it? : Every single freaking cents !

I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time ;-) (updated with pics)

I'm finally home !!!!!!!!! RYLA was definitely an experience to remember, I'm smiling now. I still remember while on the bus and the lady did this ice breaking session which was both boring and awkward. Come on lar, u can't find any other activities besides adding "...in the bedroom" behind a quote. But there's one quote actually, get this. "It's finger licking good, in the bedroom". Okay, that was gross.

Then we reached an Orang Asli village where we donated food, used clothes, etc. Haha, a rotarian said their culture is being lazy. wtf, is that even considered a culture? I mean, they have a proper home, running water and electricity provided for but they couldn't even bother to wash their clothes! Sad.

Later, we were split into groups. Obviously. It was random, like they started countin 1 to 10 and that would be your group. I was in group 8. LUCKY NUMBER! But my group no hyper people lar, but it was a nice change. I didn't mind it though, it's nice to be around peaceful people, sometimes. So they gave us colours and our group name must have the name of the colour in it. Our group was called the Green Goblin. Don't mock it, it's magical :)

After that, we were asked to make a flag for each group. It was okay, considerin not everyone can draw like Andrea does. There's one group called the Pink Rangers and on their flag appears to have one sick Ranger. According to their hyper team leader, it's because THEY'RE SO GOOD, IT HURTS. Idiot.

Of course RYLA is not so much a physical camp because the bulk of the activities is made up of ceramah-like session. Some were eye-opening, some was just dead boring. The clown workshop was fun. I now am not afraid to twist the long sausage balloon. I'll impress you guys when I make a dog out of a balloon in school, mark my words. Then, we get to be clown. I make-up Ah Man (my team member) and vice versa. Too bad I didn't wear the full clown costumes, all oredi kena take. But hey, at least I got to wear an Afro wig. It was, INTERESTING. Pics?

WARNING: TO THOSE WHO HAVE A FEAR TOWARDS CLOWNS, DO NOT, AND I MEAN DO NOT SCROLL DOWN ANY FURTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is Ah Man, and I did her make-up. I know, nice kan :) Bah, saya yang buat,MESTILAH!!! Kurang asam, she got to wear full costume btw

The singaporean girls on my team make-uping each other.

BUT BABY, THE BEST IS YET TO COME. WAIT FOR IT, WAIT FOR IT..........

So this is what I look like on a good day....


And on a bad day.............. Well actuallly, I'll look much worse than the picture above. You know, when I showed my bro the picture, he cried? LOSER

FFFFOMG, but getting rid of the make-up was a pain in the ass. We had to use baby oil I tell you. And we had to do it fast because of the jungle trekking later. Which by the way nearly ruined my Nike. But it was fun can burn all those calories piled up from eating 6 times a day, which was heavenly by the way.

All in all, the camp was definitely worth all the beggin I had to endure to persuade the mother plus the amount of money spent. RM 270 can buy you a dress and shoes okay. I'll also miss all those people I've made friends with, c u guys on MSN ? I'll also will never forget the view there. Can lawan Sabah man. But the last day of the camp was kinda bad, especially for Adam (another participant from Sabah). So sad man, he lost his camera just minutes before leaving for the airport. 700++ pics I tell you. Terus the mood hilang when getting back home.

Wanna guess what's waiting for me as soon as I reached home though? Sup Tulang! My daddy lovingly masak the sup for 5 hours so that I can eat a home cooked meal to welcome me home. Isn't that sweet? And he's sick lagi tu. But of course he still merajuk cuz I answered his sms very late, poor guy.

P/S: I passed the driving law test already. 45/50 bebeh. Looking forward to driving to school next year, you noe you're jealous!

PPS: I'm helping my aunty to sell stuff at the Gaya Christmas Carnival. Come and buy k :p (My mum made me do this selling thing btw, to "discipline" me)

All I can commit to is "maybe"

Oh yeah, I did a great job commiting to the "hiatus".

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Oh bloggie, when I thought I'd get sick of you after not updating and abstaining from the Internet, I WAS DEAD WRONG!!!! So people, how was your holiday so far? Mine? Nevermind. But things are looking up for December cause Mummy just allowed me to go to RYLA (pronounced RAYLA)!!!! Inilah, I thought she was a menopausing social pariah but apparently she loves me enough to let me go to Johor Bahru alone, well not exactly alone, but at least away from her "guarding wings" for 4 day 3 nights.

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Sad thing is, only 3 Interactors are going from Sabah, which is mua, Andy and Adam. Oh God, I can see what will happen there. I'll be so anti-social. Not only that, Andrea will dazzle everyone with her awesomeness that no one will know I exist. And then, I'll entertain myself by attempting to kasi juling my eyes . Sad. Did I mention there's Talent Night? Apa sia mau buat? I have no talent, mati lar me...

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Oh well, I would have miss the other Interactors yg cannot come. I understand it's expensive cuz have to pay RM400 for the RYLA plus airfare to and from JB. But guess what people, our school is subsidising RM200 and three Rotarians with really deep pockets is sponsoring RM400!!! Oh man, I would have kicked myself if I didn't say yes to going, it's so cheap now! dun bah, I'm not rubbing it into you faces, whatchu talkin about?!ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

And I'm sorry I'll have to miss Bervert's perfomance in da manga exhibition thingy. Don't worry Bev, I know you won't embarass me. Break a leg, preferably Dodo's. You know I love you :) I buy you keychains later, i think, I mean they're kinda expensive. Ok lar, I'll try to buy you a keychain.dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

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Speaking of which, there was this really cute guy who came to my aunty's wedding. He is not a relative so I don't have to feel guilty (cuz every other guy there was a 2nd or 3rd or 4th or ..... cousin of mine!). Orang putih again dat ! whaaat, I'm not sakai, pfft....

But too bad, I found out he's only thirteen!!!! Inilah, I was already dreaming about having kids with blond hair, it sucks to be older, hmph.... ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Well, I'm off to study cause sum1 made me promise to do it in exchange for JB. ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

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P/S : I know this post sucks mothballs. But then again, you can't win them all :p

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. It's just that yours is stupid.

HIATUS?!

Well, here I am. What were your other two wishes?

My nostrils hurt, seriously! So far, the highlight of my holiday is none other than getting a nosebleed, sad isn't it? Budu SESB, always no current my house and it's getting toasty. Remember sketsa, the part when I said I was a puteri lilin? I wasn't kidding. When mummy brought us to grandma's house, you'd think they'd have current right? WRONG! I hate this state man, Australia's waiting for me as we speak.

Speaking of the nosebleed earlier, did you know that blood came out of only one nostril and the other one is just the 'regular' stuff? I know, too much info, but I can't help it. Maybe I'm a mutant and my superpowers are developing. All those years expose to the dust and heat in 4ST has finally taken a toll on me and maybe, in given time, I'll secrete 'enzymes' which will have mind-control properties over people. If that happens, the first thing I'll do is make a pilak rape the BM Perv. Hey, I might even be doing him a favour.

Oh, and the aunt's wedding is like 2 days away. I really can't wait to get this bridesmaid duty over and done with, I mean you think I like to serve people with cakes and beer ka? It's like my permanent job. I once serve beer to this guy who was wearing this songkok. Smart. He looks like Mazlan, but tubbier. It was not my fault okay, I blame it on the heat, and secondhand drinking.

And guess who has a bloggie now huh? I bet Bervert has the answer. Inilah, I'm the main topic lagi tuh. I feel loved bebeh, LOVED. So anyone coming to watch New Moon? I don't get the hype that surrounds that movie, but I guess I'll find out in a few hours.



Maybe the hype is about him?

PEACE OUT!!!!

P/S: My nostrils still hurt....

Some people get so rich they lose all respect for humanity. That's how rich I want to be

I'm really really goin to do it! I'm going to write a book, a good fiction book and hopefully it'll get published. But that's not my main aim, not for now at least. I have always wondered "what if" this and "what if" that so I want to stop wondering and just do it. I promise when I'm finished, I will make it free for everyone to read.

Dun worry, It won't be about vampires. Cause it seems like that's the 'It' genre right now. And no, I'm not about to steal Bervert's crown. She's still the better writer. By the way, I'll just published one of my work here. It is a sonnet, which was done during an English class by Teacher Siska. It is about moving on from a particular relationship (first love maybe?) even though it seems impossible at first. Yes, it is completely original okay. Tiada tiru-tiru. It's not my best work but it'll do for now. Enjoy!

Sonnet 16

You came and left with footprints in my heart,
The memory of us is not enough,
On that fateful day when we grew apart,
Living through life as it is just grew tough.

Mum says it’s kind of like catching a cold,
One minute I’m fine with the circumstance,
One minute I’m sick as a man who’s old,
All this emotions makes me feel so tense.

But now I am no longer a victim,
I can do away with that gripping fear,
And never breathe a word about boredom,
And fill the relentless minute my dear.

The next time we meet from you I’m hoping,
To hear,”congrats on the new beginning. ”

By ,
Bervet’s darling, Mirable’ XD

P/S- Bev tricked me into giving this sonnet to her so it will be published in the school mag next year. She's such a perv, I know...