Hermit

"If you can become any animal, what animal would you be?"

It's one of those questions people like to ask for no reason whatsoever, when there's a lull in the conversation, just filling in those awkward silences. I used to answer "a dolphin, because they're cute." I know guys, cliched answer.

However, if anybody were to ask me that question now, I'd answer a hermit crab. Because it has the word hermit in it. And I am a HERMIT. If there were such things as Hermit's Anonymous, I'd probably attend that meeting every week. With a pseudonym and all that. I always wanted to have a name that ends with an "A". Sounds sexy ain't it? The Tamaras, Vanessas, Leandras, Christinas and Saras have it great I bet.

I have been in Sabah for 5 weeks. The number of times I went out with friends? ONCE. The heck?! Terrible. The thing is, I am not that great in keeping in touch with any of them. I do go on Facebook occasionally and I do have a Skype account but somehow, there's always this invisible barrier that stops me from trying to communicate with them. It's my fault definitely. I am not making mysself available to them. I wonder if this is psychological? I feel so sad at how fleeting friendships are in my case, even to those who I consider my closest, dearest friends.

Another reason why I am a hermit is because I am bogged down with responsibilities at home. I need to wake up by 8.30 a.m, to clean the house, feed the dogs, cook, do the laundry, all before 11.30 a.m. By then, all I want to do is go online and waste time until it's time to go the gym at 2pm. by 4.30 pm, I am thoroughly exhausted and I just want to lie on my bed. Repeat everyday. I cannot begrudge my parents for giving me all these responsibilities as I need to learn to be independent before Uni starts. But I do wish I actually take some time out to go around Sabah, see the sights of my beautiful home state, this slice of Paradise, before I go to gloomy wet UK. I guess I'll have to buy tons of postcards of Sabah to act as a pseudo-memory at this rate. (I know this sounds utterly pathetic)

Due to the lack of pictures in this post, I decided to include a picture of a hermit crab.

Hey buddy! :)