Blessed

I am horrible in saying goodbye. I just deleted a post titled "Goodbye" on this blog only to return over a year later saying I take it back. I want to write on this space once again. I miss this blog a lot. The main reason I stop blogging was because I was worried about how I'll be perceived and judge from what I write here, even though the title of this blog anticipated that to happen. I mean seriously.

READ.ENJOY.JUDGE as a blog title kind off took my right to complain about being judged here lol.
Reminds me of that scene in Pitch Perfect a lil' bit.

"You call yourself Fat Amy?"
"Yeah, that way twig b*****s like you don't do it behind my back."

 So what actually motivated me to come back here?
Well, a great person who comes to the life group lead by my mother (It's a home-based Christian meeting where we are taught lessons from the Bible) once told me to record down all the blessings from God that I have received to enable me to trust in Him more, seeing how much he has blessed me time and time again. You see, in exactly two weeks, I will be receiving my A2 results and this thought frightens me so damn much because if I don't get the grades that I need, die lah. I have had nightmares of not being able to make it to the UK, which is absolutely unacceptable to me because I need to get away from this country. I need to go to uni because as a 20-year-old girl who's about to embark on a journey to become a medical student and hopefully be a consultant, I have VERY long years ahead of me before I actually be able to start working and starting uni this late ain't helping.

That's why I need this space. It's hard for me to talk about my fears to other people because they understandably hate to tolerate a girl whom in her entire life, God has yet to give her something she DID NOT wanted.

For example:
1) All my life, I wanted to prove to my teachers back in Convent that I had what it takes to be number one there even though that spot had been dominated by some other girl for years.
 I BECAME TOP IN CONVENT FOR SPM IN MY YEAR.

2) Then, I wanted an awesome scholarship to read medicine in the UK, bond-free. I GOT THAT TOO.

3) But no, even that's not enough. I want my AS results to be high enough that it can persuade my teachers who for some are quite strict in giving predicted A* grades, to actually award me with 4A* predicted grades (Even though I knew I screwed up royally in my Biology and Physics papers). And guess what?

P/S: My predicted grades is 4A*.
P/P/S: I know it's nothing compared to what most of you geniuses get in your lifetime, but cut me some slack, for a numbskull like me, it's not too shabby.
P/P/P/S: I know I posted this same pic two post ago lol.

4) I want dem medical offers from UK and Ireland.  I got UCD btw via IUMC, and I was in the first batch to get it. None of those 2nd 3rd 4th round thingies. But the motherlode, from UK, was this.

I had no rejections. God knew I couldn't handle a NO from any uni. Granted, I did withdraw from Aberdeen because I was too lazy to attend the interview because by that time, I had four different offers from UK/Ireland to choose from.

Aha! Couldn't help myself with the expletives. (Repent Mirabel, repent!)

I am indeed blessed. The things I post here is just a snippet of what God has given me in life. I have so much more than this and I am forever blown away by how everything by HIS design, just fall into place.

I hope that in two weeks, I have an amazing A2 results to add to this list. Thats all.






I KNOW THIS POST ENDS BADLY (ABIT TERGANTUNG, BUT ITS 1.50 A.M AND I HAVE HERE COMES HONEY BOO BOO EPISODE TO REWATCH)



BTW, I will be posting everyday from now till 13 August 2013 hopefully. I hope this works out :)