We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. 

We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. 

And the human race is filled with passion. 

And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life.

But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. 

To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless... of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" 

Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. 

That the powerful play *goes on* and you may contribute a verse. 

What will your verse be? 

I'm BACK!!!!!!! Of ambitions, and resting on laurels.

I know, it's been a good god-knows-how-many-months ago that I posted  rants regarding my time in KYUEM, and honestly, that won't be the last one. You see, one of the reasons why I stopped blogging was my fear of authorities. I was afraid that some ky peeps will find out about what I've written and go all, "we will hunt you, and kill you" on me :/

WALAO, but seeing how the junior batch 15.0's are dressing around KY, I think I should be safe from the prying eyes of holier-than thous. Thank you juniors!

So yes, let's talk about ambitions today shall we? I started this blog when I was 16, and honestly, I thought that I was an interesting person with worthwhile things to say back then, with ambitions ranging from majoring in accountancy (WHICH I QUIT AFTER ENDURING ACCOUNTS FOR HALF THE YEAR IN FORM 4, PHEWWW), to law, and finally, to medicine. However, if you would ever tell my 16-year old self that one day, I'll have the opportunity to read medicine in the UK, paid for by the taxpayers of malaysia (through MARA scholarship no less) and not bonded (my fave word!), I would say u gotta get your head checked.How God provides right? AMAZING :)

You see, about 2 weeks ago, I just sent my uni application form to UCAS, and the following are my uni choices
1) Barts and The London, Queen Mary, LONDON!!!!!!!!!!
2) Aberdeen, Scotland
3) Queen's Belfast, Northern Ireland
4) Leicester
in that order.

BTW, I know that my application's strength is top notch considering most of  my competitors do not have actual AS grades, while I do, on top of having predicted grades.

MY AS RESULTS. 

I owe it all to GOD. Honestly, compared to my previous batch 13.0 seniors, my results are not that much to look at, but breaking 90% by the skin of my teeth for all 4 subjects, I know God continuously looks out for me. Therefore, my predicted grades are indeed 4 A*, with all my AS components at A grades :)

UKCAT RESULTS NOW!

TO GIVE AN AVERAGE OF 727.5!!!! It's above average, and it's the third highest score in KYUEM. Another OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG moment :) God, how amazing you are. 

I'm not boasting, because I know that paper qualifications do not indicate just how good of a doctor you are. However, it cannot be denied how important it is to strengthen my applications, and how good a doctor is really does depend on the medical university he/she goes to.For that, all glory to God.

Here's a song by the Katinas, a CCM band, which I dedicate to the Lord because above all, God is behind all this. So, all glory to Him. 

Just a little while longer I wanna pray

Can't get You off my mind so I came to say

Thank You Lord just for loving me

Many times as I do forget

Every need that You have met

Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me

You are there when I am down and out

You're holding me, Your love is so amazing

Oh it changed me

Chorus:

Here I am with all I am

Raise my hands to worship You

I wanna say thank you, oh thank you

For everything, for who You are

You cover me, You touch my heart

I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me

Didn't have any hope at all

You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on

I should have been the one to pay

But instead You took my place

My Jesus, words cannot explain

Even though I don't deserve Your love for me

You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

CHORUS

I wanna say thank you for the sun

I wanna say thank you for the rain

Everything You do is beautiful

I'm so grateful for Your love

Because even now I still think the world revolves around me.